Mix feeling

Im kind of having a series of mixed feeling, today is my better half back from her week long holiday in Taiwan, same time, is time to say bye to the laid back quality time over the week. I have make it clear to myself, we both do enjoy each other company over the years, I do miss her present. Just........

Woke up 10 in the morning, where this this Sunday is just so relax, unlike the usual Sunday i had to rush here and there to satisfy my significant others desire. Flash back on it, is it what i really want in my life, i bet not. Ironically, we both have different "wishes" at this point, i wanted spend time for myself as well as family. Where she rather not to. Which on contrary towards what i always internalize the family values into our relationship. Very often, im just settle in to avoid potential arguement arise, as time goes by, it will not be the good idea before long.

Gosh, at the initial point, im kind of feeling isolated where she, family and friends is not around, but it turns out just fine. I can use the fair amount of time to develop a better me, doing some kind of planning, structure, reflect my life. Enjoying quality time blogging while listening to jacky cheung Mini Private Corner jazz music.

Solitude

The best describe for what's on my mind, surprisingly im kind of enjoy it, alone in the house, pretty fair amount of time for myself, a new way to unwind, put my mind on cruise control, allows me to put off my friends, family, better half momentarily, and i can pick whatever pace i want.

Feel that i get closer to reaching it by increasing my time alone. Independence of mind and lifestyle can lead to productivity and fulfillment. English drama where i hardly watch when she's around, hiking, reading,
sport, and perhaps maybe, learn to dance.


what to do?
Essentially, the idea is to shift focus for a given amount of time. For that period, think of your life as just that -- yours; rather than just a function of interconnected relationships. You don't have to delete everything in your PDA for the day, or even reschedule anything. You can start small, with 15 minutes here or there, and then take an afternoon to yourself when you finally have the chance.

Now, what should you do? Here are some suggestions:

Exercise
The kind that takes you somewhere, such as jogging, walking and cycling, can be especially refreshing. Barring that, have a nice round of golf, or lift some weights in the gym.

Go for a long drive
Either cruise around the old neighborhood with your favorite CD on, or hit the highway and head for the countryside for a welcomed change of pace.

Check out some cool stuff
Hit the music store, check out some vintage cars or get yourself some tools. If you have any special interests, by all means go crazy and make a solo trip to the SCUBA gear outlet, the hunting supplies store, or the bike shop.

Go to a bookstore
Yes, a novel idea, I know, but fortunately, many bookstores now include coffee shops. So, get yourself a cup of joe, a few magazines and relax while reading.

Find a natural spot
Go to the park or the lake, and find a mellow place where you won't run into anyone you know. Soak in the relaxing surroundings and try thinking about nothing.

Stay home
Order in, take the phone off the hook and do whatever the hell you want. I recommend renting a movie -- you'd be surprised how satisfying it is to finally rent that Vietnam flick your girlfriend always whines about when you suggest it.

Undertake a project
From mowing the lawn to washing your car, go ahead and accomplish something. Best of all, when you've finished, you can enjoy the satisfaction that comes with crossing something off your to do list.

Take in a concert or film
You may be surprised about how enjoyable it is to have only one opinion afterwards -- yours. If you end up checking out a movie or seeing a band for a second time, you might even notice details you've never noticed before.

Get extreme
If you're an experienced outdoorsman, going camping, backpacking, kayaking, or hiking by yourself can be liberating. Just don't do anything too dangerous.

Do something creative
Don't worry about being the next Picasso, but enjoy the sensations of taking photos (preferably nude ones), painting, messing around with a digital camera, or picking up your old oboe from the high school band.
alone but not lonely
Whether you start by taking "the scenic route" to the store or leaving humanity behind for a whole weekend, it's time to start making room in your life for yourself. Stop to think about how the world looks from where you're standing, with no one to block the view.

Food for thoughts

A hot americano coffee with choux dough Chocolate eclair, overview the rainy evening from a cosy reading atmosphere Starbuck, this my favourites hide out place in the hustling and bustling city life.

Surprisingly, my productivity significantly rise especially mingling myself with the whole upscale environment, the ideas were inflow toward my minds relentlessly, a place where i can loosen up myself, relax my stressed yet tighten mind, I would say here is my sanctuary for release great thoughts.

To exercise a stronger mind, it would shrewd to make a point to boost up productivity more than twice a week here.

3rd Day

Yen in Taiwan for 3rd day.

Suddenly, i have a lot more time where im not really used to it, INITIALLY, which i keep on mumbling over time. But now, eventually i have got extra time, settle down, reflect back, and motivate myself back a little bit as old time, what's my future i will be 3 years down the road.

First get a house. Then change a new car, what next? Marry? Children?

Of course.

And also my career for 3 years down the road. Where am i heading! Lets work on it! Be dedicate on work. Earn loads of fortune if things went well. Cheers for myself, fight for us! Way to go!

Thoughts create feelings. Feelings create moods. Moods create failure or success.

Today is the day. My significant half finally flew to Taiwan as her long craving over the years. Enjoy your trip babe.

and

Finally i have some my very own time, by looking back on the blogspot that i left behind for such a long time. I realised, ONCE AGAIN, its good to have written down a little bit, my wishes, goal, feeling.. so on. That i can reflect back from time to time.

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Reflect back the blog i wrote before. There i realize how desperate i wanted a house, and now im seating here writing blog now. Where my family enjoy a warm and relax weekend in the house with kids and watching HK drama, yeah, worth mentioning, my dad is so enjoy on new HK drama, Forensic Heroes 3. I have no idea how many years more can stay with dad, mom, and my elder relatives, but, at least now im feeling great as we can be together every weekend as a whole.